THE DISTANT-GOD LIE
Updated: Jan 17, 2020
~ As a kid, I often felt God was a distant tyrant, forever disappointed in me, exasperated with my repeated failings. I DIDN'T FEEL LOVED, I FELT JUDGED.
We naturally crave acceptance - so it felt liberating to give-up my belief in God as a 20yr old and run fast into the welcoming arms of everything the world offers as a substitute.
For a long while, it was a pretty good trade. His judgement for their acceptance.
But I had believed the lie SO many fall for. God was not a far away dictator, He was ever present, quietly waiting His turn with me. He knew I would eventually realize that cheap counterfeit of perfect love would not fully satisfy. And it did not.
Every high came with a deep low, each feeling of self-empowerment undershadowed with self-loathing. And I tried everything.
All the while, God's WRAP AROUND PRESENCE was there waiting, for 20 long years, until I finally saw it.
It's never too late to see truth. He wants to drench us all in His love, but only when WE are willing to open our arms and receive what can never, truly, be replicated.